A sudden wave of love, gratitude and despair filled me, as I came to terms with my misaligned view of our relationship, and how I had misunderstood his love all these years.
The prayer counselors comforted me by reminding me that Godʼs redemptive purposes would prevail. I sensed God wanting me to reconcile with my dad – to apologize, acknowledge and thank him for all heʼs done. I also wanted to hug him and tell him I love him.
My doubting and questioning of my dadʼs love and affection for me, and hence, my not wanting to ask or not daring to expect, mirrored that of what I perceived of my Father in Heaven. Matthew 7: 9-11 came to life. “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, …know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!”
For the first time, I truly understood His perfect love.
With the prompting of the Spirit, the ladies also helped me to renounce and cut all ties with the goddess pendant and its demonic ties. We also prayed and rebuked the spirit of fear to leave, and for the Holy Spirit to fill and reside in all that was previously inhabited by this stronghold.