Then the program was over but I couldn’t stop laughing, everything was funny to me. I laughed and laughed. I laughed for 3 days! Then on the 4th day, I realized I hadn’t switched in 4 days. This was not the norm, but then again not much was. I then inquired of one of my personalities, “P.T., what’s up? It’s quiet in there!” That was my REVELATION moment, that I knew that I was healed, when the very thought of being anybody but just me was absurd! I couldn’t even relate to it!
What I didn’t realize was that I had been drunk in the Spirit for 4 days, while the Lord was completely healing and restoring me to the person I am today. PRAISE GOD! In the words of that old hymn Nothing but the blood, “What can wash away my sin, nothing but the blood of Jesus. What can make me WHOLE again, nothing but the blood of Jesus.”
Even now there is still debate, as to whether MPD is a dissociative identity disorder as defined by psychiatry or whether it is demonic, as is thought by many churches and believers. Here are my thoughts on that. Whether I was “healed” of a multiple personality disorder brought on by years of abuse or “delivered” like many women in the Bible, (Mary of Magdalene was delivered of 7 demons), either way… ALL THE GLORY TO GOD! God is able to heal me of dissociative identity disorder, do a creative miracle, deliver me of demons or all of the above
It has now been eleven glorious years since my miraculous healing! It has not all been easy, but it has been with the Lord by my side. “In this world you will have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world” John 16:33
On March 24, 2002 I was ordained Reverend by seven pastors in India, all of whom I have personally ministered with. God called me to go to India “alone” in November of 2000 and many souls for Christ is the fruit of that divine call. In March-April 2006 God called me to a 40 day ordained fast and many miraculous things happened during that time. The Lord said “Is this not the fast that I have chosen? to loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and that ye break every yoke?” Isaiah 58:6 There was revival in my daughters house, my sister was delivered and a dear friend was saved, healed and delivered, also of DID. Praise God! “Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit says the Lord.” Zach 4:6 Through that time of prayer and fasting the Lord has called and equipped me as an Evangelist with all the gifts necessary to fulfill that call. Now I am stepping out to visit other churches using the gift of Evangelism and all that that entails.
I am also a Gospel singer/songwriter and in 2001 I wrote and recorded a song called Living Water that closely parallels my life. Though I reckon I could be considered a modern day Samaritan, my life is truly rich and full of joy unspeakable. I was a broken vessel, but God has made me a vessel for honor, sanctified and useful for the master; prepared for every good work.” 2nd Timothy 2:21
Now I have the opportunity to visit other churches using the gifting of Evangelism proclaiming the good news of Jesus Christ and His healing power.
I am also a Gospel singer and I have written and recorded a song that closely parallels my life called “Living Water.” Click on the link to go to my music page.
Listen to Pattidawn sing “Living Water”
It is an honor to be used of the Lord to serve wherever he calls. My life is rich and full beyond my dreams and I will forever Praise the Lord in testimony, song and service. Amen!
“Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things-and the things that are not-to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him.” 1 Cor. 1:26-29
Rev. Pat Torok
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